What could have been…

I’m currently sitting on my couch, breastfeeding my son. He’s a little over 2 months now. I never knew how much I would love being a mom. I’ve always wanted to be a mom and thought I would make a good one. Wanting to be something and actually becoming that are two different things. Sometimes reality is worse than you expected and sometimes better. Being a mom is a billion times better than what I could have imagined! 

It’s even better because I have such a loving husband. He is such a great father too! The few days Alex was in the hospital were tough on us. I was physically and emotionally drained at the end. The first week home, Alex wasn’t allowed to pick our son up because he was passed the weight limit. I found myself having to do nearly everything around house. I mowed the lawn, did the chores, was the only one who could watch my son, and made all the meals. 

All of this gave me a huge appreciation for single moms. I couldn’t imagine doing all of this on my own forever! Yet, that could have easily been our life. 

Alex’s doctor basically said that he’s lucky to be alive. His Left Anterior Descending Artery was blocked at least 90% and it was the artery that supplies 50% of the blood to heart. If you get a heart attack from this artery they call it the widow maker. 

Alex and I laugh at it now. Mostly because it’s easier to laugh at what could have been then than to face the truth head on. Whenever I’m sick of making each meal homemade, doing extra steps to avoid sodium, and just want to throw a frozen pizza in the oven for dinner, I think of that. It gives us motivation to change our lifestyle. It’s more for the future of our son than us. Parenthood changes your perspective on everything!!

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